Indeed, those who truly trust in the Lord
will never be put to shame.
Today was just so clever in displaying Gods goodness and glory. I can't help but recall those hard times i was facing, where I am so full of doubt,pain and negativity. As much as I wanted to enumerate those hard moments, the goodness of God is more than worth sharing and it surpasses them all. God indeed turned my mourning into dancing.He heard my prayers and cries in my sleepless night. Though this is not the defining moment for all, yet God can really bring out good and great from something that you think so impossible and hopeless.
Job 1:21
and said: “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised.”
Perhaps the Lord has taken away something from my hands,but it's not because he doesn't love me, or I don't deserve it, surely because He has a greater plan more than anything else.
My Testimony
The Lord has granted one of the desires I have, I passed the National Certification III level as an Events Manager, yes! Iam a CERTIFIED EVENTS MANAGER, finally!! but before grasping that victory, I encountered this what I called FAITH ENHACER AND REFINER, truly my faith and trust was hardly tested.
Because of so much pressure and stress upon taking the assessment, I had a sleepless night. Too many things running in my mind that it kept me awake the whole night. I'm starting to worry coz I might lose my focus on the assessment. To calm my heart and mind, I repeatedly declare the Word that God gave me.
Psalm 25:3
No one who hopes in you will ever be put to shame, but shame will come on those who are treacherous without cause.
the Lord reminded me that its a matter of trusting him all nthe way. So I commanded my heart and mind to really pit my whole in Him.
Despite of all the pressure and thrill, I was able to lead the prayer with the group and also I had the chance to share the word that God gave me. It was all about giving glory to God whatever the result may be. I know it really brought all of us to God's embrace and it does pacify our hearts. Personally, I felt pressured upon sharing and giving some encouragement because of the thought of failing the exam and I myself will not pass the test of faith. I just took a deep breath and gave it all away to Jesus, trusting him the pre, during ,and the post of the situation. I decided in my heart that whatever will happen, yet I will praise him!!!
The surge got tougher. As I was carefully making my proposal, suddenly the laptop that I am using hanged and in a snapped shutdown. Wahhh.. Everything that I have started vanished. I felt so cold and clueless of what to do next. I don't have the ample time to start again and finish the proposal. Initially, my reaction was I'm very worried and grrrr.. Yet I tried to composed myself and just breathed a prayer, Trust in God.Trust in God. I asked for wisdom what to do and I know God's peace didn't left me.I was forced to transfer at the computer lab and faced the monitor blankly. I really don't know how to start again. I can't even start a single letter, because I was overwhelmed with fear of not finishing on time. Again I Prayed to God that he would give me peace and focus so that I can start making my proposal. I decided to play worship songs since I'm alone in the computer lab. I know God intended everything with a purpose,even if I have all the knowlegde and skills, and made the needed preparations for the exam, still God has the last say. As I was looking blankly at the monitor and placed my heart and mind in the peace of God, suddenly words were just flowing and I started to type. I'm a little bit disorder but along the way everything went well. Within a limited time, I managed to finished, though i am not that fully confident with my output but I just rest it to God. Time is up, and the thrill is taken to the next level. Time to print our output and present it to our assessors. I was second to the last to present because I also encountered problems in printing. I was really tested up to the last strand of chance. Still blessed coz God did made a way through people who's generous to help me. :-D Done presenting and the agony of waiting for immediate result is another thrill for all of us. As we were called one by one for the verdict, doubt and fear were playing inside of me. Playing thoughts of failing because I wasn't able to comply all the details needed. Everytime someone enters and go out from the room and receiving yes, no results, the thrill is getting higher. Still God is holding my heart in peace resounding those powerful words in me.TRUST IN GOD. I was silent and just preparing myself for the outcome. My time has come to face the verdict and its so rewarding and relieving to know that I made it! Hearing from the assessors that I am COMPETENT. I can't stop saying thank you Lord!!! From all the humps and bumps, I was able to passed the test , not with just the assessment but above all the test of faith and trust. I WAS COMPETENT TO PASSED TWO TESTS.
Even a drop of honor for myself is not worthy of claiming. Definitely it was all about God using me and the situation to show his miracle and favor. God did something powerful and amazing. He taught me to depend on Him more than in my own ability. He became the strength in my most down moment, the time that I thought everything in my sorroundings is failing. As pastor ruffy shared on his sermon,
"you can never be fashioned by God according to his design unless you are not broken." Perhaps all this time, its me all along building my own dreams and plans or I'm taking things outside Gods timeline. No matter what, I thank God that He became patient with me and waited for me to go back to His timeline and align myself to His will. Looking back to my deepest prayer a night before the exam: I am recalling and retaliating to God everything I went through fore the past 6 months. All the pain and tears I shed were just too much and I told Him I can't bear another pain and asked Him to give it to me
This time. But I am still in humility acknowledging that His will be done not mine.
What happened didn't just made me a certified and competent events manager, above all God made me a Certified and Competent daughter, believer,
Leader, and a disciple Who passed the test whatever it takes.
God is not selfish. He doesn't withhold good things to His children. The reason why there are NO answers in our prayers because it's not His will for you, or maybe not yet time for you to have it. He knows well.
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord , “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
If He sees that the road you are in is not taking you to his plans of prosperity, hope , and good future, He will patiently move you back to His original plan. Though He honors our own will, but never He will hide his perfect will for us. That's why He will always find a way for us to realize that he has the greatest and perfect will. Still, He is good, loving, and forgiving. Despite of our being stubborn and selfish, He blessed us with this gift of life not just here on earth but also life eternal through his son Jesus.
John 1:16
Out of his fullness we have all received grace in place of grace already given.
Prayer
Thank you Lord for making my life as one of your instruments to display your power and glory. Thank you for enabling me to stand against all the challenges and its all because of your grace.. All the glory and honor belongs to you. Your love never fails.. Amen.
